Why do I feel this way?~!

Okay..so my hubby has decided he is going to lose 80 pounds by summer.  I feel really happy that he would want to be so healthy…TOO good looking for me?! Im scared to death he is going to get fit and not want a damn thing to do with me.  Im just so lost in this FAT WORLD!!  ANy advice?

I’m feeling really stupid

Okay…so I started today.. Worked hard and was really consious about what I ate.. Im a nurse and cant figure this stuff out with the calories and exercise.  Do I need more calories?  According to my journal I was minus calories for what I did and ate?! can someone explain this to me?! Thanks

Food Log

Exercise Log

New and Scared

Well, Ive started but Im scared as heck.  What if I fail as I have so many other times??  Cant wait to meet new people as well.